Feeling not just blue, I am FREAKING + FUCKING disappointed. Maybe others may find dumb, but is definitely something very important to me. All the memories and friendship. Seriously, I am more then just sad. Very close to desperate or maybe is worst then just being desperate. At least it did tear me down instantly, enough to make me not just cry, but BURST into tears right on the spot. I am not that kind whom just cry anytime anywhere, and I HATE CRYING. Letting my tears fall is just so wrong. But I just couldn't stop it. It hit me so hard that I find difficulty in breathing, I just couldn't take it, a friend that I always treasured did this to me. I am seriously disappointed, the feeling is just beyond words.