I haven been blogging for days, and even I blog, I have no pictures to post, rather, I am LAZY! I am like chionging my DAMN project now. I know nuts about anything seriously. At least wrtortal is much better, I know what to do next! DAMN.
To destress I chose to let out everything here.....
Friday, Thursday, my mood is HORRIBLE! Maybe people around me had noticed but I am trying my best to cover it. I may be a poor actor, I seriously dont want you guys to worry for me. So yupps, I am okie, no worries THANKS TO HIM!!!
He flew back from Japan on Saturday, for a day, to accompany for my birthday. This is really something that made me so happy, until I seriously feel like I am on cloud nine. My birthday is over, the dream is over everything back to reality. But he is my reality, these years you are the BEST laogong, best friend. You know me best, what am I feeling behind that smiling mask. You know what am I thinking just a blink of my eyes or even a movement of my eyebrow. The best friend I can every find, of course, not forgetting the other 4. (later they kill me)
The moment he saw me, or rather the moment we reached home, DAMMIT he took like 3 files and throw it on my head! DAMN! And asked me, "wake up already? I come back just for a day to see you smiling, and you are giving me a fake one! HOW DARE YOU! TIRED OF LIVING?" Ya that hit on my head woke me up, as usual, the warm hug he gave me and said, dont worry little one, I am always here to guide u through the darkness, really woke me up. Woke me up from my dream, from my unhappiness, from everything.
Being there for me whenever I needed them, the most I asked for. I dont need any relationships, cos I got 5 people who love me as much as they love their beloved. I dont need any kisses, their hug is warm enough to melt all my unhappiness. I dont need any other guy, cos they will be there for me, whenever where ever. That is enough, just enough me make me smile the rest of my life, just enough to make me feel loved, just know to support me when I am serious down. They are the pillars of my life, the people I loved the most, Thanks lots for being there.
I am okie now! Still the smiling one. Never to go back my old self again, Not gonna let you guys be worried for me. I am happy now. Thanks for all the advice, I will take care of my super weak body. I love you guys. Thank my laogong, for my birthday be so memorable, for my heart to feel lighter then before, cos you are holding up the weight for me. Thanks my bestiie, laogong.
Mel is happy now, I had moved on, Had you? ask yourself seriously.
