Whassup with emo days man, its over so long already, but I am still bothering over that dumb incident. That day I chatted with James + Kaiwen bout it, I know is time to stop thinking and move on. Kaiwen said I self-sympathy myself, maybe is true, I kept thinking that why this happened to me. I cant take it. Friends made me forget for a moment, which i really appreciate alot, seriously. But somehow, I just think that I am extra when I am with them? am I? But I am pretty sure I am not thinking too much, I also dont know what is happening to me, since when I am so negative about stuff.

Well, apart from that, I got lots of friends with me too. Today, Ken, Wen, Kai finished their exams, envy envy. Kenny went to get his "bee hive" trimmed/cut today. Well, as usual, making a big fuss out of his hair, a bit difficult to cut as usual. His hair is nice with all the curls and stuff, but he just dont believe. Got my first pair of contact lenses, maybe second, well at least this is the first pair I got it in my eyes, and is GREY!!! next month will be greenie =))

Can someone stop me from emo-ing, hahas.

UPDATES UPDATES!!!

I havent been updating quite sometime.

Weekends, Saturday.
End up, I didnt watch fireworks, cos my buddy need me more, he doesnt want his friends to worry about him, so he acted as nothing happen. But this is more worrying, keeping things to himself. We chatted, he put in effort, he failed, then succeeded, best wishess. During the chat. he called someone down too, a someone that I dont wanna see, when we talk, I feel like I am an extra, so much pressure when talking. Anyway, maybe there goes our friendship too.

Sunday.
I didnt step out of my house at all, well it has been like that since that irritating incident happened. Anyway, I wanted to call my mummy to go out with me, but when I wanna find her, she disappeared, as usual. Watch anime and drama, thats my Sunday, but I pretty much enjoyed it.

Monday.
I went for a job interview with Jonathan, a job at the airport transit area. Something fun. Looking forward to working, Also a modeling agency called me and also another admin job called me, seems like a job day. Reach home before sun set, got my adobe photoshop CS2, so was playing with it the whole night.

Today.
Basically, I stayed at home for the whole day again! I just dont wanna go out, dont know why. so yupps visited my god-daughter at night, well she getting cranky these days, dont know what happen to her. A cute picture of her. My favorite picture =) She is coming 8 months old.


Very little visit my blog, so well, I can say something here. I always seems that I am okie, but seriously I am not. I am laughing out loud for over small things, and seriously LOUD! Starting to eat alot alot alot, and my body cant take it anymore, I start to vomit and falling sick. I will suddenly feel very very down, and need people by my side to talk to me and guide me. I want my original self back!

Finally, back to blogging. Today I got no school, self-proclaimed. No java lesson, and as usual, skipped lectures. Spent my whole afternoon looking for jobs online. Honestly, I look for jobs cos I think they are fun, maybe I just have nothing better to do.

Went up to sheryl's house at bout 2+, accompany my god-daughter, she is getting cuter as the days passes. And she didnt cry while I carry her =) In the evening, met David, Sheryl, Jonathan go watch fireworks. Well, compared to last year, this was really horrible, I am still thinking about how fantastic was France's fireworks last year, it was just magnificent. I didnt take any photos. Well, my camera run out of batt!!

I guess that's bout it, I am worried for a friend, u guys will be just fine.
I found a short clip for our largest human flag, cool =)

Okie, what the fuck is happening to me? I am getting emotional these days, worst still I am not being me. I am scared of taking the MRT now for good! Recalling back what happened last Tuesday at 6.26 such a torture. The pictures of that incident is so freaking clear! I admit seriously is DAMN hard to forget, and I am serious. The pictures are just replaying themselves.

I wanna be myself again! What the fuck, give me back my smiley face. I feel so @#$%^&*, I also dont know what am I seriously feeling. Damn you! Give me back my happiness back fucker. I hate being sad and lonely, HEAR ME? Just go and hide somewhere or vanish. You fucking spoil me, I hate what I am feeling now SERIOUSLY. GET ME? HEAR ME?

Why dont you choose somewhere else to die so that you wont affect others. Return what you took FUCKER!

Lots of things happen these days. Saw a guy jump the the track at Tampines MRT got traumatize. Was seriously not myself, I am scared of taking train, the sounds of horns and ambulance.

Went to Krunk 2 at Siloso beach yesterday, with Celeste, Yokie, their friends and Andruew. Didnt go with Celeste they all cos they were in clinques, not familiar too. Went on with Andruew friends, blah blah. Saw a really cute guy and got to dance with him. I reached home at 7 plus went to bed immediately. But it is totally horrible experience, the song are repeating, the crowd is boring and the repeating songs or horrible.


some pictures in my handphone no chance to transfer.

When to NDP, opening umbrella, well largest human flag. Made lots of noise, took lots of picture and know a few new friends from business school. I gonna admit, this year's bag is nice and I like it. Its gonna be the first goodie bag I will carry it along.








Needa chiong java and web appie log file, due tommorow, DAMN! tired....

Today is my birthday or rather yesterday, I blogged 1 day later, was home late. Feeling kinda emo the past few days. But today, my friends made me a memorable birthday. Sexy Leg kor + James bought me birthday cake. Which is SUPER nice! And we had our lunch at cafe cartel.

Although on the way to TM, the bus driver spoil my day, but my wonderful friends made it a wonderful one for me.

Follow up, James, Kailing, Kaiwen and me when to watch The Simpsons which actually is a total trash movie! It deliberately bore me. Lucky Celeste and Yokie didnt watch. Slack at coffeebean with Kaiwen waiting for James to come back from sending Kailing home. Then after that took a neoprint, which the machine SUCKS BIG TIME!













Got my low blood again. And I didnt manage to celebrate with another group of friends but I insisted on going which worry both Kaiwen & James. I am SORRY! Alot of drama here and there and Kaiwen accompany me to cineleisure to find Jiu Yuan and gang to get my mum's ic.

Slack here and there and got home.

will upload the photos tomorrow. Thanks for all the wishes my dear friend. You made my birthday memorable, Thanks Lots.

THANKS YOU

CELESTE, YOKIE, SEXYLEGS, JAMES, KAILING, KAIWEN!!

THANKS ALL FOR ALL THE WISHES =)